Why am I writing?

Here I am on a casual Thursday night, starting a brand new blog. I’ve started a blog multiple times in the past. The first one was co-owned with a friend from college. I am pretty sure I published a single article. The most recent one before this blog is still live on a Korean blogging platform. That one served me well during the Covid lockdown when I wanted to do something with my racing mind. Well, I apparently already have one to use if I want to write again. Why am I starting a new blog?

One, I want to start writing in English and the old blog is hosted on a Korean platform. Two, I have a tendency of creating an online space (blog, Instagram, YouTube…) and then running away to a new one after a while. I see this tendency as a problem, since it doesn’t help me get anywhere, and I am working on it. But hey, I just realized I haven’t quit marriage for a year and a half, so I am hopeful that I might start sticking to other efforts in life!

When I start a new online space and publish something, it feels good, because I am writing in a void. With no one reading or watching, I am creating something with no expectation or self-consciousness. It’s ironic, because if I didn’t want anyone else to see it, I could have just written on my private notepad or kept the video for myself. So it is apparent I want some people to eventually notice me. Well, there — that’s why I created a new blog and am writing on this Thursday night.

Please notice me! This time, I won’t disappear.